tempe_brennandr (tempe_brennandr) wrote in callian_luv,

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Title: All Of Me
Author: Ryanthorpe
Pairing: Cal/Gillian
Summary: Before long her body shakes violently with the painful sobs that wracked her small frame.
Date: 7-8/2/11
Rating: Strong M rating.
Disclaimer: Sadly, I don’t own LtM or Cal and Gillian, but if I did, I wouldn't be writing fan fic *sigh*
A/N: This story was inspired by recoilandgrace’s fic Choke (found here: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5452791/1/Choke#) and the song My Immortal by Evanescence. Dark, very very dark and angst. WARNING not for the faint of heart who are true Callian shippers… I’m just in one of those moods again…

Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

He used to wipe away her tears when she cried.

But he doesn’t anymore.

He used to hold her tightly in his arms when she was frightened.

But he doesn’t anymore.

He used to always call her ‘Love’.

But he doesn’t anymore.

He used to come up behind her at the office and wrap an arm around her waist as they walked together.

But he doesn’t anymore.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

And now, as they make love, it isn’t making love anymore.

His tender caresses of her body have ceased. The way his hands used to explore every inch of her skin. Knowing what places made her gasp and writhe under him, which places drove her insanely close to falling headlong from the cliff that she would hand onto.

He no longer made her gasp or writhe. It was almost as if it wasn’t the man that she knew so intimately and loved so dearly, more like the shell of the man she loved, the feeling‘s less shell.

And as she feels her orgasm tear through her; she doesn’t cry out, she bites her lip, drawing blood, as it courses through her and seconds later he quickly pulls from her, depraving himself from his own release. She feels a single hot tear roll down her cheek and she rolls away from him as she feels the mattress move slightly as he leaves the bed, wrapping herself tightly in the comforter. She waited for the door to close shut behind him as he left the bedroom, a pain filled sob escaping her lips.

And realisation dawns upon her.

He’s no longer in love with her; but he’s unwittingly torn her heart from her chest, leaving her unable to love anymore.

Before long her body shakes violently with the painful sobs that wracked her small frame.

And this is when she considers ending her pain.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Tags: cal, callian, fic, gillian, lie to me
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